Monday, August 30, 2010
wow
must have been ages since i've touched this blog O:
i've been sick for 6 days straight omg
that's a record for me
argh screw fevers hahaha
i'm not strong enough >((
hehe stupid sicknesses
and i thought no one read this blog O:
why are sooo many ppl suddenly finding
and reading my blog haha
and those that used to read
are just now gone forever
dammn this
i seem to have a knack for creating quotes haha
eh seriously i'm not bad :D
"The world is closing down on me, I just can't seem to open up"
how's this huh (: goood righhhhtt XDD
but sigh sooo true
idk luhh
everything's (everyone?) just like throwing itself in my face
all the past things
things i have been trying to put behind me
suddenly just came back up again
why can't things change as the way they are?
why must it stay the same?
why can't everything just be the way
we want it to be?
I want it to be?
because its life, yah i know i know hahaha =P
oh well
gotta take this on then
life =D
loving life =)
(with all the screwups i'm making XD)
9:18 PM
Monday, August 23, 2010
let me tell you a story of a sad boy...
a scrape on the inside on his knee
a twisted ankle
he limps his way to the bus stop
trying to save money, he lies to his parents about having dinner
watching everyone zoom off in cars
he waits patiently for his bus
-pitterpatter- the rain falls
and falls
alone at the bus stop
cold
with the occasional cold breezes that chill him
a little feverish in school, this was definitely not the treatment
15...
30...
45...
finall the bus turns into sight
tired and totally worn out
he crashed into sleep onto a seat
woken constantly by random movement and noises
he could not rest properly
he reached his destination
it was still raining
as he stood up
the scrape on his knee reminded him of its presence with a shocking pain
and so did the sprain on his ankle
he limped in pain, agony
back home
down a dark road, shadowed by trees
he limps and limps
breaking the cold hard air with his torso
feeling the icy wind against his skin
he could only shiver
and start to feel sick
feeling jumpy
he finally reaches home
hungry,cold,injured,tired
i'm not complaining or anything
sigh
sometimes life just gets real tough on you
but you have to just bite it down
and love it
and yay we won 3rd!!
good job guys ;D
at a painful price >_<
i'll sleep through it then
10:05 PM
Saturday, August 21, 2010
hahaha we lost it
dayumn
dissapointing
but suprisingly, it wasnt saddening
yes realli hahaha
i'm not that emo tsk
i just lay down on the field and rested my injured thigh
yes like this hahaha
i felt strangely contented
like "i've went out there and done my best" kind of feeling
its the first first time i actually felt like that before
happy carefree kind of feeling
losing didnt realli matter at that point of time
it was REALLI REALLI good to feel like that
but my injured thigh ouch >_< hehe
we've done well
lets go 4A we'll clinch third :DD
6:11 PM
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
tmr's against 4R hahaha
we will win this 4A :D
we will go to the finals
the 1st 2nd placing
lets GOOOO
and i wanna see the awesome photos HAHA :D
seeing you in this state
i realli worry for you
i want to talk to you
but i cant
i promised myself alr
i shall be here if you need me
IF you need me
IF
11:05 PM
hahaha omg i look like a rabbit :D
and MEEE with the goalkick :D
our wonderful,pwnass team HAHA 4A FTW :DD
team bonding :D
8:30 PM
...
...
...
sigh
if u guys think i hate life now
well i dun
life has it ups and downs
and i'm just in the rather down region for now
i nid my time
and hopefully things dun get worse
i'll try to hang in there
as always
i'm there for you
i think i'm just gonna stop talking to you
for a period of time
idk how long
absence makes the heart grow fonder right?
okie maybe not but wtv
i see it pointless for me to try so hard
when u just push me aside
i'm not the one u'll laugh with anw
go laugh with ur other frens yah?
i wun bother u anymore
but
as always
if u need me i'm always here
to lend u my ear to ur rants
to lend u my shoulder to sob upon
i'm always here
always
12:45 AM
Monday, August 16, 2010
)))):
i feel like such a damn fool
WHY do i do all these things?
then i just sink into chaos i never hope for
this is absolutely retarded
i am absolutely retarded
there's nth i can do about it anw
u try so hard
to fall back down again
hard
and i'm not just talking about breakdancing
its everything
there's no point trying so hard
they've got all the right moves
in the right faces
and me?
i've got everything screwed up how bout that
i'm going down~~
its freaking hard to let everyone like you
cos no one ever does
all just looking at the outside
never bothering to look DEEPER
they always go
on and on
about how "looks are bonus"
damn it all
if one didnt had looks
would he/she attract ppl to bother looking deeper?
no
u just have to care for the outside dude
no one knows me
i'm just alone
in my own loser world
just kick me guys
kick me aside
u dun ever need me do you
no one ever gets the hints
no one
i just suck
alright alright i wun bother u anymore
i'm just gonna leave you alone
alright?
but u wun be as alone as i will be
cos u have everyone
and i have no one
i'm the one
that's realli alone
u used to be the one i almost trusted
until things changed/ happened
but NO ONE UNDERSTANDS
there's no one to listen to me
everyone's busy talking to everybody else
cos i'm the only loser
lame boring loser
stupid random loser
not-funny not-spastic loser
average loser
which no one bothers to talk to
u cant even bother to ANSWER A SIMPLE QUESTION
i realli dun feel like naming you here
you too
yea there're 2 ppl i realli hate and getting confused over now
and i realli dunno whut to do
i'm just a loser arent i?
a retarded, lame loser
can someone just tell me that i am
so i can jump off the building now?
end this misery
end this chaos
end this all
-The End-
-Not-
its just getting started
i'm going down
10:37 PM
Sunday, August 15, 2010
damn its realli hard not to be emo
sigh... whut can i do?
i feel kinda backstabbed
but at the same time
my idk nature is telling me not to get angry
and let things blow over
and let myself be at the losing side
just lose whatever belief and faith i had
in you
both of you
WHY IS IT SO UNFAIR
i cant say ANYTHING to both of you
or both of you will screw me up
ur impressions of me
AHHHHHH
i have to take it to MYSELF
and no one shares this burden with me
this sux
ikr
this sux real bad
should i keep you? both?
i'm on the verge of losing both of you right now
gone forever
should i just forget you guys
let you 2 be whutever u want to be without me?
decisions decisions
stupid bloody backstabber i HATE YOU
the other one? i have nth to say to you
not like you would care about whut i say ANW HUH
JUST LISTEN TO THE BACKSTABBER goddammit
ARGH -tears hair- -looks-
and all these white hair for nth
I. AM. DAMN. ANGRY. NOW. AH. HHH. HHH
WHY DO U 2 HAVE TO DO THIS TO ME!!!
WHY WHY WHY!!
i nid help please
someone help me
i'm gonna fall into the deep-emo zone soon
please i'm barely clinging on to my optimism
oh yah
no one reads this anw
sigh...
i guess i should let go then
no one cares anw
-let go-
-looks around-
hmm pretty dark here...
where are my emotes?
all gone
i guess this is really the emo zone
lets sit down
and think
emo
and wait for the rope that comes down for me to climb back up again
hopefully it might come
or it'll never come
no one shares my burden anw
all of you soo happy
just ignoring me when u feel like it
do u know how i feel?
i guess not
after all
i'm fukang
are u guys fukang? do u even try to be?
HUH ARGH
I DUN EVEN KNOW WHY I AM BOTHERING TO WRITE IT ALL HERE
NO ONE READS THIS DAMN IT
NO ONE IS GOING TO HELP ME ARGH DAMN DAMN DAMN
THIS SUX MTM
AFTER ALL
u guys dun know how its like not to be funny huh
to be boring and uncool
u dun know do you
u guys are just too cool and humourous to be me right?
however hard u try, ppl still like you right?
well let me tell you
IT SUCKS SUCKS SUX
NO ONE LAUGHS WITH YOU
THEY STAND BY YOU PITYING YOU
cos u are just a "FRIEND"
TRYING TO LAUGH
LAUGHING AT YOU COS U ARE A RETARD
MSN CONVOS DIE OUT
ONE LINER REPLIES FOR MSN
ONE WORRRDDD REPLIES
"yah" "hahaha" "lol"
NO ONE LIKES ME DO YOU GET IT
NO ONE LIKES TO TALK TO ME
I'M THIS BORING PIECE OF SHIT
AHHHH DAMNNNNNN
WHY COULDNT I HAVE A BETTER SENSE OF HUMOUR
BE MORE SPASTIC
WHY AM I SOO BORING TO TALK TO
GODDAMN WHY WHY WHY WHY!!
SOMEONE GIVE ME A DAMN ANSWER!
oh wait i have it
cos i'm fukang right
DAMN FUKANG WHY DO I HAVE TO BE FUKANG
DAMN THIS SHIT
ARGH
i swear i nid a knife to slash myself now
no rope's coming down anw
nope nth but me
alone
emo
damn
-starts slashing-
6:55 PM
Saturday, August 14, 2010
sigh... its stony again
missed the saturdays we used to go lanning haha :]
just went to sim lim square for a bit of tech shopping
nth much lehhs blehh =P
pretty boring now
guess its time to sleep?
and continue last nite's thinking
now where did i stop?
oh yah...
whether to-
oh right that's later
i'm thinking too much
i should just calm down
and let things take place as they will
we cant interfere with fate and destiny can we?
can we?
O:
MAYBE WE CAN :D
not D:
hahaha yupp just let things take place as they will :[
does that count as giving up?
does it?
11:22 PM
Friday, August 13, 2010
shizzz i'm damn tired
my eyes are closing
but i definitely nid to put this down tonite
its hurting
a fren u trust so much just betrays ur trust
it feels like crap
"i'm not a flirt!!" yah yah yah wtv
then u go talk to all the girls behind our backs
sigh...
u and ur hypocrisy are getting on my nerves...
AND u
should i let go alr?
maybe its time
idk
its time to look inwards
and make the decisions
that might shape my life
for better or for worse
whut should i do?
whut whut whut
dammit ))):
11:07 PM
Thursday, August 12, 2010
i'm still SOCCER HIGH HAHA
omg interclass soccer FTW
epic tiring fun bonding pressuring day :DDD
being a defensive midfielder is hard work O:
we drew 3 games out of 4 in our qualifiers
and we had to score one goal in our last game
BUT
we
drew 0-0
we thought: that's it for us... gg liaoz
BUT we went to penalties HAHAHAHAHA OMG LUCKIEEEEEE i luv you sang ju :DDDD
AND I MISSED OMG MY PENALTY GOT SAVED ))):
but we still got thru luhh :DD
i was like literally praying for us to get in omg :D
sooo quarter-finals against 4C!!
nice play manz whooo
ruiliang shot and missed
but i was there
and TAPPED IT INTO GOAL HAHAHAHA GOOOOOOAAAAAALLLLLL
GOAL GOAL GOAL WTH WTH WTH HAHAHAHA
damn HIGHHHHHHH
i scored the first goal for 4A :DDDD
that's it team :D we're making it
and we won the match 2-1
we're through into the semi-s
then it started raining
idk fortunately or unfortunately luh
all of us were tired and we just showered and went for swensens hahahaa :D
but oh my slippers god
ME SO BLUR HAHAHA
I TOOK a pair of left footed slippers HAHAHAHA XD
but swensens was delicious yupp :D
and bonding
yupp
lets not mention the slippers
swensens was delicious yummmmmy :D
literally practically technically crashed at home hahaha
suuper tired and shagged blehh :P
i must be getting unfit (dun slap me ppl ;D)
riiiiigggghhhhtttt unfit :D
HAHA LETS MAKE IT TO THE FINALS PPL
TO THE FINALSSSSS :DD
9:20 PM
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
wow ytd was epicly fun
soccer in the morning :DD
hahaha retarded soccer ttm
and then badminton!!
omg its been like 2 years since i touched a badminton racquet :P
not bad got back a biiit of my "form" :D
but wah sooo much sports blehh this morning KO-ed
screw this man
ppl can just be soooo screwed up
they pretend that they are like unlikable and shiz
then they have a social life beyond imagination
"no one likes me" screw off man
u hypocritical shit
the worst part about lying
is when ur lie gets discovered
and right now
i just discovered soooo many...
just disappear, just be gone
argh >(((((((( i'm getting angry over you sucker
i just have 2 words repeating in my head
screw
OFF
i have absolutely NO MOOD to do ANYTHING NOW
and its ur fault
yes ur fault
oh u're saying sry?
screw
OFF
4:45 PM
Sunday, August 8, 2010
hahaha omg crashed again ytd
but ytd was damn fun!!
had yog celebrations
where we saw all the CCALs make a fool out of themselves (Y)
and our teachers getting thrashed in the games by us :D
hahaha damn epic
and we saw all the yog peeps XD
AND THE OLYMPIC FLAME soo kewl omg (:
then lanning session wheeeeee :D
our first lanning session in 2010 omg
fun times fun times
3 hours of CS hahaha and some shouting blehh :D
enjoyed meself (:
12:03 PM
Friday, August 6, 2010
FINALLY OMG RESSSTTTT
this week has been absolutely tiring ):
all spent on showcase portfolio
sleeping at 1 everyday
literally everyDAY :D
well that's not veh late but...
its still late idc :D
slacking nao hahaha
and tmr YOG celebration .__.
go back to school specially for it omg
i was wondering whut would happen if some guy
just doused the olympic flame :D
hahaha they will have to relight it XP
sigh...its rest time =)
9:36 PM
Thursday, August 5, 2010
HAHA OMG LIKE FINALLY
portfolio is donneeeee :DD
it was surprisingly useful O:
let me think back on soo many things
sigh... finally
and we have a long weekend wheee (:
12:41 AM
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
i'm dead tired...
omg -YAWN-
this portfolio thing is killing me omg
and i dun even think it's that well done
microsoft word crashed on me some more -.-
i'm gonna die
soooo tired ):
jyjy ppl!! (:
12:06 AM
Monday, August 2, 2010
wheeeeeeeeeee
nahh i'm tired alr DD:
sry guyss showcase portfolio is EATING up my time omg
no time to blog sigh
life has been uhm...
depressing and happy
): (:
things are starting to look up a bit
well at least we're talking!
perhaps i'm not holding on that tightly anymore
but tight enough to care for you (:
yupp i'm still caring :D
maybe i should remain this way
i'm much happier
(:
THE AA WAS AWESOME AND RETARDED HAHA
RGS GUIDES (Y)
loved the kit kat advertisement :D
and the structure :D (mayo's baby HAHA) which ACSI destroyed XD
the dances were retarded much hahahaha
and the games were quite uhm original (Y)
pity sean sum hahaha
all the random sec 3s were ka-jiao-ing him non stop XD
lucky jun yu din do his random waving
but omg haha i swear the sec 3s were high till crazy
had fun there :D
seeing all the kewl SJI ppl worshiping the RG goddesses ;)
wheeeee hehe :D
12:05 AM
