Monday, March 14, 2011
HELLO PEOPLE
its halfway through jobweek so i'm kinda still stuck in school for the rest of tomorrow D:
DANCEWORKS YESTERDAY WOOHOO :D it was super eye opening omg there're so many good good dancers out there hahaha, makes me want to improve so much more. Just finished training my body waves HAHA :D dancing is cool dancing is cool
but we didnt win omg ): our seniors deserved to get it lah seriously, but in the end we just didnt and we kinda had this emo session, totally wasnt healthy ):
BUT BUT BUT everyone cheered up yayyyy :D and we went to hang out at plaza singgg (: it was damn cool lah :D our j2s and j1s together chilling and playing retarded games :D everyone was super high haha got to see the fun side of everyone (:
but shit getting damn tired these few days, just totally CRASHING in the mornings like nobody's business heh, and it's the hols sia (:
its damn surprising how some people can actually bother to complain about their looks and get away with it
the next time ryan seah tells me he's ugly
i'll slap him till he's that ugly
not like he's been saying it a lot lately HAHA just saying
i cant smile in photos or else i'll seriously look damn unglam ): and it spoils a lot of photos whenever i try ):
sigh and i dont even look that good or photogenic or whatever
how can people look so good and get away with it
SIGH
looks do get you somewhere dont they ): damn it
everytime i look at photos at myself
i just cringe, its harder than looking myself in the mirror
because i just realised how retarded i looked at that moment
there's never always a mirror in front of you to check your image, your actions, your 'glamness', there's not a mirror like that
it just goes to show how little i watch myself out there ):
i dont know whether its a good or bad thing really, am i being open :D or just being unconscious of my self-image D:
how to get over your looks sia ):
you guys all have it easy, you guys dont know how superficial you all can be at times ): subconscious kind of thing i think
we're all superficial arent we, DEEP DEEP DOWN INSIDE THERE, ask yourself, you're really superficial arent you? You really really like to talk to the hot guy/girl over there, and you seriously dont get why the retarded guy/girl keeps annoying you. We're all like that.
how do we move beyond that? How? ): i really hope that people can see that i'm really a nice guy underneath my retarded looks, a sensitive person caring for everyone. Not that i'm pointing fingers at anyone, i'm just hoping (:
I just believe that personality holds out longer than looks lah (: so lets just start working from there muahaha :D HMM what are my flaws then...? Too dependent? Too talkative? Too silent? HAHA damn i really dont know either :D too perfect lah my personality XD HAHAHA omg sorry ego moment (: RIIIGHHHT
i'm really trying to see beyond looks lah (: (no pun intended)
but everytime i look at photos (or the lack thereof) i justt... ):
LETS KEEP TRYING :D i'm an awesome person RIGHT RIGHT :D
-silence-
HAHA i'll take that as a yes
it's time to be perfect
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