Sunday, April 24, 2011
i'm never going to let myself be emo again
ever
whenever i get emo, everything just changes
whatever i worked so hard to achieve just crumbles
and it also makes everything so much more awkward ):
i especially hate the awkward part
i mean like if everything gets awkward
you all won't like to talk to me (yes i can tell)
and that just makes me feel more left out and more emo
just a super vicious cycle D:
i wish things could go back to what they were ):
sigh
what to do, i can't turn back time
i'll just try from now onwards
more confidence, less overthinking, be yourself
hope it can change things for the better ):
had some inspirational moments at haiyin today
when i saw the kids all happy
and their lovely notes
i just couldnt help thinking how beautiful their little hearts are
(mine's not any bigger but)
you get what i mean (:
they're so contented with their lives
they're so happy
why can't we all go back to those days
where things were all happy and carefree
where no one judged you for your lack of maturity
where everyone just had fun together
i want it to be that way ):
living as a kid, with an old man's wisdom
that'll probably be what i'm going to try to achieve from now on
and perhaps i can learn to appreciate myself more
and hopefully you guys can too ):
i just really dislike the sense of loneliness
and rejection (consciously or subconsciously)
give me a chance to prove myself
just that silver chance
try to erase all your judgmental opinions you had of me ):
i promise myself to try to be as happy as i can be
lets do this (:
its time to be perfect
very perfect
6:51 PM
