Wednesday, May 11, 2011
doing work at 4am in the morning
sigh what a life to have
just decided to pen my thoughts down
or type it ha ha ha
i'm just trying so hard to balance everything in RJ
social, work, cca
and i don't want any of them to be compromised
i can already feel different from the days back in RI
where everything didn't require as much dedication
and commitment
and then sometimes i do feel disappointed
i do feel let down
but i'm still trying my best ):
i just really want to have people that appreciate me for who i am
regardless of how well i do in studies
regardless of how little friends i have
regardless of how bad i dance
regardless of how uninteresting i am
to look beyond the surface and like me for who i am
have i actually found anyone?
"or are you just a decoy dream
in my head
am i home
or am i simply tumbling down alone~"
from on the wing by owl city~
i'd like to think that i've found some closer friends to talk to
and sometimes i really do believe in them
my faith holds strong
but when certain circumstances present themselves in such a way
that challenges my faith
i lose hold
i lose control
i lose sight of what we are
and i'm disappointed with myself
why am i so weak-minded
why can't i just continue believing
maybe certain issues in the past did compromise the faith i had in people
but things are happening now, fu kang
they might not be the same anymore
maybe there are people that appreciate you out there
its time for you to start appreciating them more with an open heart
but then again
things might be the same
and i'm just tumbling down alone
into a pit of solitude
i dont want to end up there
4:49 AM
