Saturday, June 4, 2011
sometimes i just can't help feeling boring
and uninteresting and dull
the feeling when you realize
no one comments on what you just said
no one laughs at your attempts at humor
you keep creating this awkward silence for everyone
when circumstances keep presenting this the way it is
do i have reasons to object to this hypothesis?
people around me are so much more interesting
they have a humor that matches everyone's wavelengths
while mine matches no one's
they tend to lighten the mood whenever they're around
while i only bring it down
they attract attention, pulling people in
while people try to avoid me because i'm so awkward
they engage in lively conversations
while mine just die out
they put smiles on people's faces
while i make people force theirs'
and i'm not even exaggerating
when people around you keep acting this way
there's really no other way to go around it
when people keep running away from you to join the funnier people
you'll just feel left out
and start thinking why they do it
and then compare yourself to the funny people
its a vicious cycle, whatever you call it
and i just end up trapped in it all the time
funny people bring things across in interesting ways
funny people make people laugh
funny people are nicer to hang around with
funny people don't get judged
funny people appear more optimistic
and that's just what i'm not
no matter how many times people try to comfort me
saying that i'm really a funny person
i just can't see myself being funny
compared to all the jokers around me
):
i should really just shut up
people start judging me if i put everything up here
its time i started on my diary
i just cant bring myself to decorate it cos my art sucks heh
oh well
):
11:30 AM
