Saturday, July 10, 2010
SOMEHOW...
i always end up with sad quotes ):
sigh...
"I'm not saying I have nothing. I'm not saying I'm gone completely. It's just sometimes it's all a bit too much to handle. Sometimes I feel like it's too much. I'm not going to do anything stupid because I know it will get better, it has to right? Otherwise there wouldn't be anyone who would live past their teenage years. But for now, just for now, it hurts."
funny how this thing describes how i feel
SO accurately ):
yes i'm not saying i have nothing
i do have right!!
and i'm not gone completely either
i'm still here
but yea... it freaking hurts... >_<
whut have i done to deserve this hmm?
there's this sour feeling in my heart
and i dunno whut to do with it
it just hurts (and its not heart attack)
"I don't deserve you...I never did"
yes... maybe i'm just foolish to even try
why then do i try?
why why why why why
wozhuzhidao... woZHENDEbuzhidao...
i'm just dumb, stupid, wishful thinking, deluded
"Behind my smile is everything you'll never understand"
:D
did that seem happy to you?
huh did it?
well lemme tell you
try looking beyond it
deeper, deeper, deeper down
see anything there? that empty pit where happiness used to fill?
oh u dun know why it became empty do you?
yahh, u'll never understand
why would you understand?
do you even know me?
do you even TRY to know me?
or did you just push me aside?
like an irritation
"I don't know if I'm getting better or just used to the pain"
self-confidence does make me feel better
wait... is it?
or am i just numbing myself?
numbing myself to the sour feeling
finding excuses for YOU to make it go away
idk... i'm realli messed up
"Have you ever felt so alone and nothing makes sense? Well that's how I feel right now...I feel like I'm facing everything myself, with nothing but tears and a fake smile..."
absolutely nth
no one to understand me
no one to comfort me
no one that knows
just this ---> :D
yahh a smiley on the comp
and this --> D: in my heart
no one around
i'm alone in my own world
my nonsensical world
which no one knows...
D:
10:11 PM
