Tuesday, May 17, 2011
i feel so alone
too alone
there's no one that really enjoys talking to me
too unfunny too boring too uninteresting
i can't match up to anyone
its so hard fighting towards that ideal
when other people are already that ideal
and it just get emphasized in your face
over and over again
till i have to admit time and time again
i'm just not good enough
and no one's ever going to enjoy my company
no one's ever going to appreciate my presence
no one's ever going to appreciate my enthusiasm
no one at all
i'm just here by myself
all by myself with no one to talk to
i don't even know what to say or think anymore
its just the same every single time
i end up with the same freaking problem
i'm just not cool enough
i'm just not funny enough
you all say- forget it
this blog's not for blaming people anyway
i'm just not your type of person to talk to
and how many other reasons
everytime i try to start a conversation
be it msn, sms, face to face, phone
it just dies
there's no other way going around explaining it is there
i'm just bloody boring
that no one can actually endure a conversation with me
no one at all
i'm alone, all alone
trying so hard to break free from this pit of solitude
that i keep ending up deeper in
further and further down the pit i go
and maybe i don't even care anymore
nobody cares if i reach rock-bottom
no one gives a shit about what happens to me
no one gives a shit about what i think
no one gives a heck how hard i try
it ends up the same all the time
i should just shut up
i'm just being a noisy sore loser
if i'm like that, i should deal with it right
no one cares about you anyway
just go find a corner in this pit of solitude and go think
there's nothing you can do anyway
people are just too good
the pit's too deep for you to climb out
just plaster on a fake smile
and pretend you're doing okay
no one gives a shit how you feel
deal with it
life's like that
as much as you want to change it
you can't
you're nobody
you're just an oversensitive retard
you're just a boring old piece of shit
you're just an annoying little twat
you're just an uncool loser
you're just an awkward noob
what can you do?
just scram and get your face out of my sight fukang
i dont need you to spoil my day
just go try to dance
you look less like a retard that way
i dont give a shit what you do
just get lost
i feel so alone
too alone
who cares anyway
11:17 PM
