Sunday, May 22, 2011
i'm getting tired of posting the exact same thing here
again and again
and i think you all are getting tired of reading it as well
but what am i supposed to do
i just feel the same everyday
cold, alone, left out, solitude
but i really need to tell someone or write something
and there's no one for me to tell anything to
i was just thinking i should start keeping a diary
and draw and write all the stuff i want inside
and stop writing here
its too public
and no one appreciates me anyway
what's the point
i'm just going to keep everything to myself
and its not that i want to
its just because no one wants to talk to me
and i really want to pour out everything
everyone takes it the wrong way
and they judge me
and i hate being judged
can't guys get emotional?
is it wrong for us to be easily hurt?
i don't give a shit anymore
one thing i learnt today
from my friend ordering dinner
right in front of me
it just revealed so much about the way i should be
i shouldn't give a shit so much anymore
if things don't work out
when people don't make them work out
there's nothing i can do about it
its too entirely one way the way things are going
and i'm getting so tired of trying so hard
and thinking so much
i should just go to sleep
and shut myself out from this useless world
which i dont have a place in
"nobody cares, cause i'm alone and the world is having more fun than me"
entirely true
no one notices or cares about me when they're having fun anyway
12:15 AM
