Sunday, June 19, 2011
Always put into a spot of inadequacy and insecurity.
We all want to be perfect people. Regardless of why and who we want to be perfect, we, in each of our own funny weird ways, are striving towards this perfection. And then again, we all have our own definitions of perfection. Some people want to be more funny, while others might just want to be more popular. Everyone has different criteria in their heads. And more often than not, this set of criteria are affected by the people around you.
When you see someone better than you, in more ways than one, and you find him or her getting attention and what-not, you start forming an image of perfection in your heads, someone you ultimately want to be. There are undeniably a lot a lot of people around you that are better than you in so many ways, and they merely add on to the endless list of criteria of being perfect.
When situations happen in such a way that makes you seem inadequate, for example, no one laughed when you tried to crack a joke, you compare yourself to the image of perfection in your head, and wonder what you did wrong. People tell you that you didn't do anything wrong, but when actually you and only you know what "doing something wrong" in this case means. We are drifting away from the line that differentiates our present self with our ideal self, further and further away. Sometimes we tend closer to this ideal self in our heads, but more often than not, people around you make you feel overshadowed.
As you compare yourself to the perfect self, you realise that each and every action you make, every single thing that you do, is not perfect. When we see others being so perfect effortlessly, we can't help but feel pressure to keep up, and usually we try so hard but fail to reach that standard. When people around you start comparing you, consciously or subconsciously, prefer to talk to someone else over you, laughing at others but not you, thinks he sings and dances better compared to you, it only adds to your downward spiral. Is down the only way to go?
Always put into a spot of inadequacy and insecurity. Isn't it ironic how perfection is the cause and solution to these problems? Forever inadequate, incompetent and always not good enough. For you and for everyone else.
8:34 AM
