Thursday, July 7, 2011
Why? Why am I like this? Oversensitive to everthing, overthinking over every single detail, so easily affected by what others think and forever erratic. I don't even feel normal. People go on about guys being bochup, cool, interesting and funny and I can't even feel like that, because i'm forever not as good. Stuck a misfit, when can i ever break free?
I really think i should tone down on my thinking. Its getting me nowhere, it really doesn't pay to be sensitive to everyone at every single instant. Not only does no one appreciate it, they start taking you for granted. I end up being the one getting hurt so bad. I'm done patching up the wounds, maybe not, but isn't it time for me to learn how to avoid these injuries? How. How do people stay moderately sensitive? WHY IS BEING NICE A BAD THING? I am so confused. I hate it when people get pissed off with me when i'm being nice. It gets me thinking so much, and i NEVER find the answer. Am i just being annoying? Isn't it more annoying if people don't give a shit about what you think and feel?
Forget it. If no one is going to like me being too nice, then i must as well save the effort. Your losses anyway. ):
11:26 PM