Wednesday, August 10, 2011
What a way to prove me right. I was going to type out the details of today's happenings but I don't even see the point, and partly cos i'm lazy and can't be bothered. So much for spontaneity. Yesterday, my class asked me out for supper at 11pm, that is spontaneity. A simple outing, seriously. Only 2 people (yes including me) made it. Out of what, 23 people? Probably our last outing before the Promos, and the night before half the people didn't even have the sense to reply me whether they could make it or not. The other half, some said they could make it, and i thought i could do with them for the day. Halfway through the day, I was getting the impression that no one's going to turn up. But no, i just had to wait some more, wait for hopefully 3 more people that could make my day. Just setting myself up for chaos seriously. Had to go, had to go, had to go, what am i supposed to do? Get angry at y'all? I can't freaking get angry at anybody, just very exasperated. I dropped hints, hints that i had no dinner at home, no one to be with for the rest of the night. Maybe no one picked it up, maybe they did but ignored it, that's how much my presence is worth. Everyone feels guilty when they can't make it for other people's dinners and what not, its just not the same for me i guess. A test of spontaneity seriously shows how much importance you have in people's lives. Don't compare me to anybody, no one studied in school from morning till the evening. You all had fun for the day, lunch with people, meetings, dinner at home with the family. I had none of that.
Screw my expectations. The difference between expectations and wishes, is that you actually do believe your expectations do come true for whatever reason. No one gives a shit about your expectations. They have theirs too. It only matters when you're part of those expectations, but apparently, you're not.
8:26 PM
